patrick cavan brown i shoot people :: editorial portrait and commercial advertising photographer :: colorado springs, denver, boulder, co


new heterogeneous mass


“There is a new heterogeneous mass in the retroperitoneum to the left of the aorta at the level of the inferior kidneys.  This measures 4.1 x 3.2 cm and is consistent with metestatic testicular carcinoma…”

…so says the radiologist.

uninvited guests


Fuji X-100  23mm  iso400  f2  1/60

two years ago
i kept them mostly secret
these uninvited guests
two years ago
it was quick
and relatively painless
saying goodbye
to these uninvited guests
two years ago
i thought i was lucky
and maybe i was
maybe i am
except what do i have now
but more uninvited guests
so i am left to wonder
maybe i invited them
these uninvited guests
maybe they are a blessing
a gift
a chance to grow
and change
maybe they are an invitation
for me
to learn
to live
to love